The Introverts Opinion

I’ve had my period since Friday and I’m in Hell. Today is the last day when I can restart my pill. But then it’s Endometriosis time. But I’m going walking with mum tomorrow so hopefully exercise will help with the pain. I had marinated cooked tofu last night in a wrap with grated cheese and mayo. It was delicious, never had tofu before so I got a packet of it tonight. Even mum loved it.

So how have I been feeling? Honestly, a bit down really. I’ve started taking my antidepressants again and I’m trying to get an appointment with the doctor to see her, but if you’re in the UK you know how fun it is trying to get one of those!

I’m always feeling bad at the moment, I’m getting that drowning feeling again. That feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach like something bad is about to happen. That’s all back again. But I’m acknowledging it instead of ignoring and blocking it out. Trying to understand why I’m having these feelings again and what’s caused them to return.

It’s a small set back but I know it’s not my fault. And it will get better again.

There’s no cure for depression. There’s no button to press to make everything alright again. It’s up to me to work on myself and be here instead of overthinking everything and worrying about it. I just need to work a bit harder. And be kind to myself and love myself despite my flaws and my struggles. Any set backs I will forgive myself for instead of punishing myself!

It’s not the happiest update I’ve done but I want to be honest about my mental health and my depression!

Peace. Be kind and love yourself!